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| Thursday, October 27th, 2005 | | 10:35 pm |
Been a Long Time
I'm probably going to fail my background design class. I'm doing alright in all of my classes except for that one. I have like no free time for anything now though. It kind of really blows. I don't even really have time to draw what I want to draw and practice new techniques because all we are doing so far is getting down principles and timing for proper animation structure. It's really bad because I'm not as good as I was when I applied now. Basicly a few days after I got in some really bad shit happened. It made me very depressed and I felt like shit beyond shit. I didn't draw a single picture until about a week before class started. Plus you can add the past 2 months on since the only things we've been drawing is balls and paper moving. Bleh, Now everyone can stop complaining that I never update. OH yeah, I broke up with Carol too... | | Friday, April 1st, 2005 | | 11:55 pm |
Hurray
Today I got into College. I'd had a dream about going to the door and pulling out the envelope from the mail box and noticing it was rather small, the size of the you suck and didn't get in letter. But My sis actually went and grabbed them. We both opened them at the same time. We both got into our courses. She'd thought I was mortified and didn't get in at first because I wasn't smiling or saying anything. In Truth, I wasn't all that excited, just relieved I got in. Later when I told Carol I played a bit of a joke and pretended to be mortified like as though I found out and hadn't gotten in. She looked like she was gonna hug me and try to cheer me up and as she was about to hold me, I said "I got in" and she went ecstatic, flipped out, and kept chanting, "I knew you'd get in, I told you!!!#@$%" No one Even attempted to play any Jokes on me for April Fools. I was shocked and disappointed. The Pope Died at Approximately 1:30pm. How do I know you ask? A feeling... Me and Nick ate at Harveys about an hour before I had to work, and made plenty of obscene jokes about the pope and his "BIG APRIL FOOLS JOKE" and numerous sexual type dilly's. It was even funnier afterwords when we got up and noticed this horrified elderly couple sitting behind us. It was like something out of a comedy movie. They were probably thinking (Damn'd kids these days, no respect!) Nick and I may look 18 but I'm 23 in 9 days and he's turning 22. Where does the time go? O,o | | Thursday, March 31st, 2005 | | 9:52 pm |
Mother Fuckers, all of them!!!
Ok, so I get home and my mom tells me I have a message from The College I'm trying to get in to. I check it and it's inviting me to this art show on April 15'th, where they show off first year student's portfolios and can even asses ours for free. WHAT THE FUCK? Where was this shit 3 months ago? Before I had to pay them with what little money I have? Jesus! And like, I probably find out whether I get into the course either tomorrow or Monday. So what the fuck do I need him to look at if I'm in the course? It feels like being mocked. I paid for an assessment (and a registration fee which could have been avoided if they'd offered this earlier LIKE 3 MONTHS AGO) , and they're offering a free one, months later, days after you find out you're in the course. I can't even type anymore, I'm just too pissed FUCK OFF | | Wednesday, December 8th, 2004 | | 7:05 pm |
When everything turns around
Look, I'm still alive. Well thanks to Carol I'm happier then I can remember. We're like totally in love and shit. Who would have thought that something so great would actually happen to me after all the bad shit that'd happened? Not me. And I'm so glad things went the way they did. Hell, I even danced in front of people for her and there's photographic evidence >_< Since I was last on I've picked up 3d modeling/animation and have quickly become adept in it. I can already make pretty much anything I can imagine which is cool because it is definitely a field that I would enjoy working in. Finally, after a 3 year rut, I've decided on something for my future. I only wish it'd come sooner. Oh well. yeah, ok, I had so much more to talk about but my basement's fucking cold and my fingers are starting to become stiff so away I go for now, here's my latest 3d thingy...  | | Friday, October 1st, 2004 | | 2:36 am |
Sleep, need, bored, ewww
1...How many sexual partners have you had? 1-5, 6-10, 11+? That's a very presumptuous question. What if it's 0? 2...Making out or shaking out? I don't even understand this question (Making out is cool though) 3...Condom? O.o uhhhm,,,,, 4...Socks in bed? Yeah, I'm gonna assume that this is sexual related since everything else seems to be,,,,Socks suck,fishnets are sexy, barefoot isn't bad either O.o 5...First Date, Laid or get made? WTF? I'm just gonna say no 6...Sex before marriage? Where was this 5 questions ago? Yes, but with someone special 7...Fuck and Chuck? Not a chance in hell 8...Perfect first time? In the moment, we don't even realize what we're doing before we're doing it. (that and she takes birth control and is clean of diseases so I don't have to use a condom our first time) Don't look at me funny! I just don't think a rubber'd be appropriate for a first time in sharing souls or whatever you believe in... 9...ThreeSome? No 10...SexToys? ,,,,Uhmmm,,,,maybe??? >_< 11...sixty-nine? Never tried it 12...Anal? Who the fuck comes up with these questions? 13...Spanking? See answer to question #12 14...Strange Fetishes? Not that I know of O.o 15...Got Milk? Ok, Again, see answer to question #12 16...Doggy style? Not as of yet 17...Love,Money,Good Sex? Love 18...Like it Rough? Define "It" 19...Dominate or Dominated? Depends on the night? 20...Experienced or Lacking Well I know where everything goes O.o but haven't done everything, so does that negate the question? 21...Dri Fuck this. There's 101 questions and they just get dumber and dumber so I stopped around here ;) ok, it's past 3am, I must now sleep, Good night True believers ,,,oh and feel free to copy and paste the question parts I have here and put them in your LJ since the site I got them from encourages it. I'd give you the link to where I got them so you can see the rest but I closed the other window already and I have my IE history set to 0 so the page is lost forever,,,,, or I could always type whatever I typed into the search engine again ;p <-- too lazy | | 1:05 am |
I have a New Girlfriend O.o!
*Poof* I return from the endless void. And I'm not single!!! It was like *poof* it's here and real. Her name is Carol and I'd actually met her months ago while working. She was a customer. Not something I ever thought was going to happen I can tell you that much. The first time I laid eyes on her I was intrigued. I loved her style. Gothica. Not something I'm regularly in to. Unfortunately, I was dating Kim (ohh god why oh why?) at the time, so being the faithful guy that I am, I just stuck to idle chit chat with her. As luck would have it, Carol kept coming into the store time after time and we talked about all sorts of things (I always wondered to myself if she'd had a crush on me since she'd sometimes come in and look like she was blushing when I'd say hello to her. I'd then dismiss it because I'd thought, why would a girl like that like a guy like me?) Then all of the badness of the past few months came and I was in a real funk. I mean REAL, like, I'd probably not be alive if it wasn't for Ash and her incredible way of cheering me up through making fun of everything O.o She's a real Pal and I love her (platonicly) for that. End of August. Carol's in the store one day and somehow we get on the topic of Invader Zim. I'd not ever seen it and only heard from my friend Nick that it was the greatest show ever. She says that she had them all on disc and that she could loan them to me. I said sure! So she passes them to me a few days later and tells me that her e-mail is in 1 of the disc cases. I added her to my hotmail contacts and it turned out that she used MSN Messenger. We then talked over it for a while and got to know each other better. A few weeks later we arranged to go see a movie. I didn't know if she was single or dating or what since I'd not asked her (and she'd came into the store 1 day with a guy whom I figured was her boyfriend) so I didn't make any moves like I really wanted to >_< After we made plans for her to come over to my place on Saturday so we could have a Buffy/Angel Fest (Oddly enough, we didn't end up watching 1 single episode of either show) Then a few days after that we were on the MSN again and we were thinking up random topics, then she asked me if there was someone I liked. This totally put me on the spot. I'm clueless about women, I didn't really know she liked me. I had self doubt. I thought, she's probably asking me this because she likes me and wants me to say I like her. Then came the doubt and I then thought, nah, she's probably dating that guy I saw her with and she's just curious. I totally went all out to change the subject because I just couldn't come out with it in fear that she'd not return the feeling. I have this major rejection complex... After all that when I finally got her to stop asking "I shall not try to force it out of you anymore" , I then replied "good ^_^ ....so, who do you like? <- walking contradiction" She said ME@#$%*@$%^@!!!!! me me me,,,,me! My smile was from ear to ear. So this now turned our Saturday night into an official Date? I guess so. Not going to kiss and tell but we're now dating. Finally, something good happening in my life. This helps make everything better and I'm much happier because of it. Now the only hitch there seems to be... it's been almost a week and her parents still know nothing of me and she thinks the age difference will be a problem for them :/ Ergh >_ | | Saturday, August 14th, 2004 | | 1:46 am |
| | Wednesday, July 21st, 2004 | | 10:20 pm |
Today I got Pulled over by a bike cop...
Today a bike cop pulled me over on my way home from work for not signaling on a turn. She even asked me for my driver's license. I was all, "Do you honestly think I'd be riding this bike right now if I had a driver's license?" Then I lied and said I was 17 and told her I didn't even have a wallet and gave her a fake name ^_^! Ottawa Bike cops are pointless heh. On a plus note for work, I now work 10-6 on weekdays so I actually have evenings to go out with my friends again. Go me ^_^! Ergh, I'm going nuts. I need some sort of project. Something to make life feal fulfiling in some way. Do we live to work, grow old, and die angry? Bleh! Current Mood:  crappy | | Friday, July 2nd, 2004 | | 10:04 pm |
Canada Day
Had lots of fun yesterday. We went downtown and looked all around. Sadly I forgot my camera so there will be no pics up on my website of the occasion ;_; We ate at this restaurant called "Yesterday's" and we drank some beers and ate some pretty good shit. I had a chicken caesar wrap. Best damn thing I've ever put in my mouth. Later, in the market I had some girl ask me if I wanted a date for the night. Alls I noticed was her hairy belly button and I quickly retorted "Not tonight Donkey Kong." It was pretty funny. We all laughed but her. I can be so mean sometimes ^_^ The thing that impressed me the most this year was how they actually tried to make the Ottawa show decent. They actually had volunteers to try and raise the spirit of the crowed and get everybody motivated to cheer and to the wave and shit. They also had Tommy Boy singing "Life is a Highway" (Amongst some more lesser known songs) and right on the end note they kicked off the fireworks. Now this fireworks show was amazing. The best one they've ever put on. It was 20 mins instead of only 10 like it usually is. Plus, They had many special effects like explosions that looked like hearts, and butterflies, and one that even looked like a hotdog in my opinion. (I may have just been craving hotdogs at the time >_> ) They had ones which were like tracers, so they looked like sparkily rain. And ones that looked like shooting stars that had blue star ends, and golden particle dust shooting from behind. Totally the most impressive thing I've ever seen this city put on. The only shitty part about the day really was going home. The busses were free and you know how cheapo's that can't walk 2 blocks are >_< ALL FULL AS HELL. We had to walk for 2 hours to get to the closest bus station. And we'd just made it to the station on time before the last bus running by our area had come. One little bit of luck I guess. That about sums up my Canada Day minus the t-shirts I bought, the hour I waited for my friend to get a FAKE tattoo, and the Hotdog I eventually bought. But those are stories for another day ;p P.S. Watched the Terminal today. Fantastic movie with another disapointing ending. Why don't I just start walking out of movies near the end when I'm satisfied with the movie before they tack on something that ruins it for me? Current Mood:  content | | Thursday, July 1st, 2004 | | 1:49 am |
Damn
Ok, so like my boss owns 2 stores and he just fired his manager at his other store and wants my manager to manage both stores so now we're all back on full time work again, am I supposed to be happy or sad about this? #_# I also had to work Monday and Tuesday because my manager decided to drinky drinky a tad too much and got him self some alcohal poisoning. I really think I'm going to be gay or a hermit soon because Women suck. We'll leave that one at that..... Just got home from the Spider-Man 2 premier about an hour ago. It was spicy! A lot better then the first movie with lots of funny bits, better story arcs reminiscent of the comics, and Spider-Man cg that still looked like ass..... but the good movie makes up for the ass......so go watch yourself some ass! ^_^ Also played the Spider-Man the movie 2 game a couple of days before it was on the market (there are a few perks to my job I guess) It's one of the best games I've ever played. Like Grand theft auto, only you're a hero, and the story doesn't make you fall a sleep. I had more to write, but I'm too tired, g'night kiddies | | Wednesday, June 16th, 2004 | | 12:08 am |
Why?
Ok, these past 2 months have been like movie mania months for me here. I've scene more movies in the past 2 months in theaters then I think I've seen in my life time. Starsky & Hutch, I really liked it. Snoop was the shit (I still hate his music) Van Helsing, Good but don't blink or you'll miss half the movie Shrek 2, not as good as the first one but still very watchable and funny Scooby-Doo 2, better then I thought it'd be, better then the first movie, only 1 food joke? Fuck that Kill Bill Vol2, there are those who hate this movie, those whom loath it more then life it's self, those whom would rather jab rusty spikes in their head then watch this movie. That was me until they got to her training flashback with the old master. This movie is the shit, Swords and hot chicks, oh yeah Harry Potter part 3 or 4 or whatever the fuck it was (Can you tell that girls like to drag me to movies much?) Actually not that bad, Ending was ass. The Chronicles of Riddick, I almost fell asleep at the beginning but loved this movie from the opening of the prison scene until the end of the movie. It was great, and they didn't even do another love interest for Vinny. Hurray for some actual originality! The Stepford Wives, again, my lady friends like to drag me to girlie movies >_< must be cuz they're jealous of my hair or some shit. But, this one was actually pretty good. It's like a horror movie. But only for woman. Though I could relate since I prefer tomboy's over girlie girls, bleh ;p The only thing I'd have done different was the ending. Why do most movies end shitty? Especially really good ones? Oh, back to Riddick, it had a good ending, go see the mofo kill some shit with his tea cup!!! | | Tuesday, June 15th, 2004 | | 12:04 am |
Bikes are trying to kill me O.o
Why does every single bike I own seem to try and kill me in some way shape or form. I don't go around and trick off of every single thing I can see. I simply ride in flat roads to and fro work. Yet, they still seem to do something. My newest bike, that wasn't even a month old yet, decided it'd like to seize my chain so that it's actually bend the gear shifter, and cut through the metal like a chainsaw, actually almost killing me with the whiplash had I not jumped off of the thing. My last bike, had it's handlebars suddenly loosen, snap back over my wrists, holding my hands onto the bar with the breaks, making it impossible for me to let go. I then proceeded to flip over it and fuck me knees and wrists up. Lots of blood here. Didn't they seem surprised when I walked into the store with my broken bike, bleeding all over (Yeah, that's right, I actually dragged the fucking thing all the way to the store while still bleeding right after the accident) The bike before that decided to loosen at the bolt that holds the steering bar to the wheel, making my bike decide it wanted to turn in an alternate direction from that of my choice. I flipped over it and shredded my knees and palms. Plenty of blood here too. In fact, the clothes I was wearing were ruined. Do I go for another bike? Am I crazy to think that some sort of being is fucking with me or doesn't want me to have a working bike? Fuck..... I mean, the only bikes I never had a problem with, that I could ride the shit out of were all stolen because my mom used to make us leave our bikes outside. Now that I can actually have nice bikes without worrying about them being stolen, they simply try to kill me. Fuck fuck fuckity fuck fuck... Current Mood: crappy | | Monday, May 17th, 2004 | | 2:40 am |
| | Saturday, May 15th, 2004 | | 9:57 am |
E3 The greatest idea ever or something I wanna piss on...
Ok, I just found out yesterday around 7pm that I could have gotten into E3 (the greatest electronics/video-game show there is which has demos of all things coming out until the next show) for free because of my job. Nice to find out after the fact. Thanks Boss >_< The real nut-kicker about E3 doesn't have anything to do with the actual show though. It's the stupid people who don't read a full article on the internet and then don't have their facts straight. I already have people coming into my store and asking to buy games that won't be out for another 8 months and trying to prebook PSP's (Sony's new gameboy wannabe for adults) It's such a pain in the ass. And when I tell them what is so and what isn't, They don't fucking believe me. Hello, I get e-mails direct from Nintendo, Sony, Microsoft, and Hip Interactive. I know what the buzz is on all of the shit behind the scenes. Don't fucking question me when I tell you I'm %100 sure on something. I wouldn't say I'm %100 sure unless it was a %100 proven fact to the world >_< So the bottom line is, Read the entire article and look at the release dates before arguing with somebody who's in the business, and who doesn't want to waist his time talking to clueless dipshits Current Mood:  irritated | | Thursday, May 13th, 2004 | | 9:58 am |
Lazy Basterd
Ok Kids, hurry over to http://www.happytreefriends.com/watch_episodes/index.html#35Because for a limited time they have all their cartoons up to see. Haha, hopefully I corrupt a few minds with my fav flash site ^_^ Things that happened since my b-day. I gained 13 pounds, feel agonizing pain when I wake up in the mornings, and realized that I hate my life. Everything's peachy keen ^_^ Good night true believers O.o! Current Mood: crappy | | Saturday, April 10th, 2004 | | 8:45 pm |
Today Is My Birthday
Today I am 22, and everyone who was supposed to wish me a happy birthday today has done so except for one person. You know who your are! For shame, for shame..... | | Wednesday, April 7th, 2004 | | 12:27 am |
HellBoy
I saw HellBoy opening night. It was pretty good. Started off kind of slow but then really picks up. Some parts even had better looking CG then Lord Of The Gays *cough* Rings... Note:yes I am aware that they used computers that were 100x more powerful then the ones used in hellboy but at least hellboy's stuff looked more like it was actually integrated into the real world where as LOTR looked kind of faded or foggy for some reason. It even had PANCAKES!!! Pan fucking Cakes! Anyone who does not understand the significance of the Pancakes does not deserve to see this movie! They even fucked up in 1 scene and had the frame flipped. I yelled, "look, it's the left hand of doom!" and people all over the theater laughed. ok, I had more shit to write about but I'm tired and don't care enough so fuck it.... P.S. Ash, you stink of fish!!! | | Wednesday, March 31st, 2004 | | 12:53 am |
The Next Day
Ok, so Monday was my day off and I get a call from Pete at work. He's all concerned that I'm going to quit and asking me what he can do to make it better for me to stay. I tell him we need better security, cameras, and 2 people closing the store every night. He agrees to comply with everything but then I told him I still wouldn't feel safe and did not know if I'd still stay there for an extended period of time. He asked me what he could do but I had no answer for him. What can anyone do in such a situation except for maybe adding a kill bot to the store ;p But seriously he asked me if I knew anyone who wouldn't mind working there for part time at nights and I asked my best friend and he got the job and actually worked a few hours later that day. Talk about a lot of shit piled into one small room real fast. Oh well, it will be good to work with someone I can trust and who I know will have my back when push really comes to shove. Good Night Faithful Lackys... | | Monday, March 29th, 2004 | | 1:58 am |
OH HELL, not more crooks at my store :(
March 27th, Approximately 6:05pm Ali, a dumb piece of shit, gutter trash, dill hole whom I remember from grade school comes into my store. He calmly asks me if I can help him in purchasing some x-box product. He asks for an x-box, 2 controllers, x-box live,x-box dvd kit, and the games The Getaway and Splinter Cell: Pandora... As I'm grabbing the items he asks me if I remember him from grade 5 and 6 and names off our teachers we had. I told him that I didn't remember much of anything from back then and had no recollection of whom he was with the straightest poker face you'd ever seen(can I tell a lie or what? ;p ) I then began to ring up the sale and he pulls out a huge Wad of Bills. I'm talking what looked to be at least $5000 in 20's and 100's. My first thought was "did this shit head win the lottery or something?" I should have gone with my Gut which told me to not trust this guy as far as I can throw him (Did I mention he's fat?) But ignored it at first, since I figured no one would be stupid enough to mention a detail like past schooling where they can be found through a simple gander of an old school picture and then also be dumb enough to use counterfeit money on this person whom you may have just lit a spark of memory like that for. Unfortunately we were busy at the time and Mark was in the back screwing around on the internet instead of working so I served the customers and then went into the back to check the money (I'd quickly thrown it in the back because I didn't want to leave such a large sum of money in my till.) and tried the ink test. The money did not pass. I then grabbed one of our 20's to make sure it wasn't the paper I was testing it on and sure enough, our money passed. I then flipped over the bills and looked at serial #'s. At first glance you see different #'s. But after looking through 6-7 bills there was a repeat in #'s. Bam! Counterfeit. I then called 911 and gave the police his first and last name plus full description and spent the last half hour of work filling out police reports...... Not THE END March 28th, Approximately 5:20pm I'd just come back to the front of the store from a phone call when the accomplice came in. He placed an x-box and some very familiar hardware and software onto my front desk. He then gave some bullshit story about how his friend got him this stuff and he didn't need it so he'd like to return it for a refund. I asked him for the receipt and checked the serial #'s and sure enough, it was everything from the day before. Mark was about to say something (probably tell the guy that we don't give refunds) when I cut him off, gave him a quick look, then double tapped the receipt to give him a signal. I then said "Yeah, ok, no problem, I just need to go to the back to process a return of such a large amount." he says "yeah, no prob, ok." I then go to the back and Dial the magical # again. I told the operator "I need a squad car here now. I have a guy here who's trying to return stolen merchandise from yesterday for a cash refund." she asks me in a very rude, condesending, I think you're pulling shit out of your ass prank-call-kid kind of voice "ok, and what are you doing right now?" "Stalling for time while you get the police here NOW!" "she then was about to say something else when I cut her off. "Listen, yesterday a man named Ali Zatun came into our store, he's lebanese, he used counterfeit money to purchase a large amount of products from our store and has a friend in here right now trying to return it for money, I'm guessing they think we didn't realize they gave us fake money yesterday." She then shuts the fuck up and says a car is on the way. As I'm in the back shaking, Mark's in the front stalling with whatever bullshit he can throw out of his ass. The operator then asks me questions for about 7 mins and asks me if the police had arrived yet. "No." "hmm, they should be there soon." 3 mins later, yes folks, a total of about 10 mins... I hear a voice yelling, "Why are you trying to return stolen merchandise to a store? Put your hands up now!!" (The cop I'd spoken to the night before had told me that response time should be about a minute since there's always at least 4 squad cars in the area, BULL!) I then hang up on the rude, annoying operator, and run out to the front to see the action. I tells yeah, it was like a scene out of the cops tv show. The cop asked me the skimmie on what happened. I told him about the counterfeit from the day before and that this guy was trying to return it for the $680. Nice Laundering idea on paper I must admit but it didn't work. The cop then yelled "You're under arrest, put your hands behind your back." He did not comply. He just acted all innocent and started to try to run. The cop then smashed him into one of our glass cases and flips out on his ass. (I must admit, this was really cool looking. Damn tv and it's desensitization!) He barely had the guy in one cuff when another cop runs in with his hand over his gun. The guy practically went limp at that moment. A few moments later the cop came back into the store and told me the guy even gets a $300 fine for parking in the handy cap spot. We had a laugh and he told me I needed to charge him with a trespasser notice if he were to return to the store. I then asked "Ok, and what about his jail time? Shouldn't I not be worrying about either of them trespassing for years?" He fell silent. I then said, "Great, a lot of good this trespassing charge will do me when buddy comes back with a gun to shoot me in the head." And in his little mind it would be revenge, because in my experience, people who start shit, still see it as something they need to finish if things don't go their way. Just as Pabs (my best friend Pablo) comes up I finished my new report and we both went out and I gave it to the police. After closing up the store we went and saw lord of the gay *cough* rings 3. Over Hyped much? Bad acting, Bad CG, Bad everything.... The End? ....kinda, for this guy to of attained this stuff, Ali would not of been arrested the same day it happened. I gave them a brief history on him, full name and description, past school, even the fact that he used to have fucked up legs that turned inward to the point of his feet facing each other, and he must have had surgery in the past few years to correct it because they now looked normal. It scares me that he was not arrested within 20 minutes of the fraud and that I still don't know if he is currently arrested or not. I don't know if I'm going to stay at my current place of employment much longer, The risks to my life are definitely not worth it considering I'm being paid shit pay... | | Tuesday, March 23rd, 2004 | | 10:41 pm |
Dawn Of The Dead
greatest Zombie movie ever, Best Horror movie in years. It made Resident evil look like church. It had a great story line and awesome actors to back it up. We all even had to sit until the ending of the ending credits. If they don't make a part II then I will inflict death upon their pet donkeys! Ok, I think I'm done now. Go spend your money and watch it. Don't download this one like a jerk. It's worth it if you like horror. .....Oh, And Ashley told me I should watch it because it was hella cool. Go Ash! http://www.redeck.com/users/chris_beck/AshIsAPieceOfCrap.htm^_^ |
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